So I am single now. The last post was made one night when I couldn’t sleep and I knew my time with my ex was limited. That was about a month ago. So a month in here are some plans for the future:
1) get a higher paying job
2) go back to school and become a teacher
3) start playing shows again
4) learn how to cook
I just interviewed for a higher paying job that actually sounds really fun. It would be with kids in a nice part of the county. It’s far away but I have a plan on how to get there everyday.
I am going to SPC this week to hopefully speak to a counselor of some kind who can point me in the right direction. I want to figure out a way to get a career going at this point. I would rather have a career working with children and do music stuff on the side. I think that would ultimately be more fulfilling.
I am writing and working with a few different bands. I have enough good material to be able to go play by myself. I want to find someone in the bay area who can do a good analog recording or at least something pro sounding. Nothing fancy but something beyond garage band.
I am learning to cook better! Made bacon and eggs this morning! Made chicken, rice, and broc the other night. Stoked.
I want to post on here more about cool things happening in my life. I went for an amazing hike yesterday up in the northern area of pinellas county. The area was a wetland and it helps filter out pollutants and gives many different animals a safe place to live away from the suburban sprawl. I actually saw a black snake sliding through these floridian bushes. It was pretty cool. Today is beach day! It’s important for me to go because I get to recharge and relax. I love it.
I fell asleep around 8pm and woke again at 11:30pm to find my girlfriend extremely pissed at me for falling asleep so early. There is a sick guilt feeling in my stomach because she worked hard today cleaning the apartment and making dinner. Meanwhile, my phone is broken and I was in the negative in my bank account just now. Good thing I have a savings account to put the checking balance at zero. Still, that is really pathetic. Again, the guilt. I have a way of putting the bad stuff about me out of my mind so that I can keep telling myself that I am wonderful. Basically, I took all my clothes that were on the floor and threw them into my closet. You know it’s not clean. Fuck, being poor is awful and it’s going to tear my relationship apart. The things is that I have made an effort this week to be more charming and give Jen a little more space. No more penis jokes, no more suffication. But instead I end up doing what she hates the most, go to bed early. Each day I am stranded at my job from 6:30am to 6:00pm with little break and although I love the job itself, I make a meager sum and the powers that be have the world’s tightest assholes. Maybe I should be making more money before I move out on my own but I needed my own place. Damn the man! Overall, I’ve felt better than I do right now. I’ve felt worst and more stressed before but right now I feel awkward and useless. I feel like I can’t get fully confortable at my new job and I keep making little errors at home and work that are sinking me. I broke the lamp, the internet cable, a wine glass, killed the fish at work, and Jen and I had a bad fight last saturday that really bummed me out. Blah. Sometimes I need to write all this out just to get it off my chest and feel normal again. I should try to get some sleep and get back on the horse tomorrow.
I am starting two new bands! One will be called The Silverist and will consist of me singing and playing guitar with drums, bass, and second guitar backing me up. The second will be a hardcore punk band along the lines of gorilla biscuits and kid dynamite. I am super stoked on both and can’t wait to get started on both. YEAH!!
I remember the Fall of 2007 when I was first introduced to the Office. My friend Mike Hollan bought season 3 of this show I had heard of and had seen an episode of once. The initial viewing did nothing for me and I couldn’t understand the humor or what they were trying to convey in terms of a storyline. But that was two years prior and I was ready for something different in Fall 2007. I ended up getting hooked on the season 3 episodes and then went back and watched the first and second seasons. The characters were so real and fleshed out that I began to see them as real people. The Jim and Pam love saga gave the series a great emotional depth while Dwight and Michael were so original and funny. The show was so amazingly awkward and yet uplifting. What the fuck happened? Jim and Pam were smug as hell now. Michael is just a jerk. Dwight’s bullshit is old. Erin is a weirdo. Andy is an idiot. The new corporate is awful. What can you do? Not watch? No. Write a letter to NBC? Probably wouldn’t make it through to the writers. I think I am going to watch the rest of the season and go from there. I hear Modern Family is really good. Maybe I should just start reading more.
So I took a month or two long break from tumblr so I could get caught up in work, writing songs, and do more nothing. I will admit that boredom has been slowly choking me but it’s my own fault/idea to let all the good ideas collect in my head and let them out in an album/book/movie/religion/etc. Here is a list of some ideas I’ve had lately:
-A book about a post apocalyptic america and a man has to bond with a group of misfits and survive
-An alt country band
-A 90’s rock band
-A ice cream shop in St Pete
Jena got a new job at a cake shop/cafe and it’s perfect for her. She gets to bake all day and I get to eat professional cake. Better than eating whatever gross processed food I could afford that day.
I’m going to try to fix the shower head in my bathroom. Let me know what’s up!
Today at work a young man in the 3rd grade told me that he no longer wanted to be friends with another boy because the other boy made rude comments about the woman he loves. He wanted to take a stand and show that he has the balls to show devotion to his girlfriend. Good man. I also found out that she dumped him the other day. Damn.
And………………..we’re back. So I am currently watching a documentary on VH1 Classics about metal and how metal kids belong to the giant family of metal. Those fat kids who wear black slayer shirts at the mall get a documentary made by an anthropologist and metal’s smarter, less rape oriented cousin, punk, gets a few weirdo documentaries where they only talk about the sex pistols and the clash. Oh, there was also the very incomplete American Hardcore, where a bunch of old punk assholes said that hardcore was dead. Yes, you own punk and can tell all the kids in basements everywhere that what they love is dead and that they basically have no right to make music. Go put your dick in a wood chopper. This is the thing about punk. The old punk guys get bitter because what they loved and fought for in their youth never became what they thought it should have been. They feel that the music they feel in love with was meant to be understood in layers and being able to enjoy Jawbreaker or Sunny Day Real Estate gave them the ability to understand all other music. Plus punk rock has a weird moral center where you can’t talk about girls being sexy or wanting to have sex. Punk rock also frowns upon being a huge success. Metal, on the other hand, celebrates these things. They have been given the permission in their scene to talk about fucking women and wanting to be the biggest thing since Jesus Christ or at least Satan. Yes, metal attracts weirdo ADHD ass clowns who smell like they need showers and love horror movies but they don’t try to be something that they are not. They are metal. It’s simple. Go hard, loud, and fuck like hell. Punk is scattered and pretentious. Old punks become history professors or record store owners. If punk rock is so scattered then you can’t really make a documentary about it that has something interesting to say nor can you find what makes it easy to relate to or what anything that made it controversial in mainstream America. Yeah, it’s basically a hobby to most of people who are into it. Well, I have a show to go to in Ybor. Get doomed!
Last Friday, I was playing volleyball at YMCA and the ball was coming down over the net so I jumped up to block. On the other side, my father jumped at the same time and then we banged into each other pretty hard under the net. Over the next few days, the bruise in leg got worse and worse till today I when I could hardly move at work. So I came home early and started to rub icy hot on my leg while I lay in bed. Then, I touched my balls with my hand that was covered in icy hot. I don’t remember the last time I’ve been in that much pain but I did almost cry. I thought my balls were going to burn off into carbon dioxide. I had to dance around like I hadn’t pissed in a year. That totally sucked!
Remember that being in a band about taking small steps. Demos before full lengths. Songs before photo shoots. Weekend tours before you are across the country. SO here is how you book a weekend tour!
First, your friday show is your most important because this one is where you are hoping to make enough money from so that you can relax the rest of the time. Try to make that first night only 2 hours away at most. This way, you are putting in only about 20 bucks of gas. Next, find the venue/band/person living in the town two hours away who will set up your show. Maybe you are owed a show from when you set up your first one or that demo you made kicks ass and someone in that town is stoked to see you play. If this isn’t case, get on myspace and type in the zip code for the area you are looking at. Sometimes, there are shows already happening that your band can jump on. Message these people on myspace and explain that you are looking for a show on a certain date and any gas money you can get would be great. Remember, they are probably an independent promoter and can’t offer a ton of money to begin with. Once you get your Friday show, look for your Saturday show. This can be a ways away because you have all day to drive. Try to find a show where some more popular bands are playing. Look up the myspace page of one of the bands/venue/promoter and see if you can get on. Once you have your Saturday show, the Sunday show should come easy. More on this later!
In 2010, I want to write a story about a man living in a post apocalyptic world and the struggle he must go through to survive. I don’t know what kind of adversary I want to pit against the man but I want there to be themes of loss, fear, anger, and eventually triumph. Haha!
I need to add to my HOW TO BE IN A BAND blog on here so I’m going to check into that and figure out what comes next. I might have to speak to a few friends and get some insight!
I need a good game to play tonight after Jena and I get off work. The dreariness of work is always most potent during the holiday season. I am thinking we could have a competition involving cards, drawing, running, eating ice cream, and going in the hot tub. Who knows?!
